Sassafrazzled

it was a pretty good day. period.

Today was my second chemo and my tenth radiation session. Time flies when you're having fun! Okay, maybe 'fun' isn't the right word. But it's strange how comfortable you get in a routine. I was just getting used to going to the same hospital room every day, seeing the same people, doing the same thing, but today I found out that will all change next week when I start my internal radiation blasts. Starting next week, they will knock me out twice a week and stick the radiation stick thing inside of me for a closer zap. In a way I'm pretty excited, as the sooner I start these things the closer I will be to being finished.

After chemo was radiation, where I think I embarrassed my radiation technician who is a really quiet and shy guy, around my age, and I asked him if he was getting tired of seeing my bum everyday. Before he could answer, I told him that if he were my boyfriend, the correct answer would be that he could never get tired of looking at my bum. There was uncomfortable silence after that.

I then met with my doctor and nurse just to talk about how I'm feeling. I am feeling really really good. Everything is going swimmingly, and if the rest of the treatment is like this, I will be laughing. Fingers crossed. I then asked my doctor for a little ego-stroke. I asked her to just go over everything that is in my favour. She did, and it made me happy. I strutted out of that office and I've been walking around with my chest puffed out ever since. I did get a little sad finding out that I will never have a period again. For some reason I was under the impression that I still would have them, but that's not the case. I'm one of those crazy girls who actually likes having her period. It makes me feel womanly, and I've always liked it. But the one I'm on now, will be my last. I feel like I should have a going-away party for it to thank-it for all the good memories of cramps, bitchiness and tampons. Actually, provided I don't go into menopause, I will still have all the cramps and everything associated with having a period, but without the actual period. Again, fingers crossed. It's nice to have an excuse to be a bitch once a month...

posted by Stephanie @ 5:17 p.m.